Wanting vs Needing

I need to want you
Not want to need you,
Now that I’ve grown,
And can handle alone,
It took me so long,
To stand here so strong,
Not used to missing,
The holding and kissing,
So don’t think I’m weak,
Just for wanting your cheek,
Be very aware,
If I decide to share,
My life and my heart,
Know right from the start,
It’s a decision made,
From not being afraid,
By thinking bravely,
Doing what’s best for me,
By knowing I want you,
And not that I need you.

DROWNING & RISING

We were drowning.
Both of us.
and like drowning people do,
we panicked.
Desperately clinging to each other,
whilst at the same time pushing each other away.
Both of us.
Weighed down with baggage.
So much baggage.
Tied fast, to our hands, our feet,
our bodies, our minds, our hearts, our souls.
Pulling us, dragging us, downward,
and apart.
I was dragged so far down
I couldn’t see you anymore.
Didn’t know if you were above me,
or below me.
I only knew I was drowning,
as were you.
Both of us.

In our bid to survive,
we lost each other,
in our frantic attempt to shed ourselves
of all that was weighing us down.
I lost sight of you, as I tried to
cut cords and set myself free,
find me,
and in time,
I did.
Finally rising up to the surface,
having shed myself of everything,
I manage to scan the horizon,
and there, much
to my eternal surprise,
I see you, in the distance,
bobbing freely, and serenely.
I can see a glow around you,
and I start to swim slowly in your direction,
my heart lifting,
when I realise it appears,
you are also swimming,
towards me.

Organic Change

organic change
comes naturally
a process that
one cannot see
Yet it goes on
there is no doubt
if nourished from
the inside out
change is the fruit
of this process
though will not come
under duress
but in its time
it comes for sure
strong and clear
ripe and mature
change you can trust
organic fruit
from nourishing
down to the root

Giddy, Happy Ken (GHK)

Hey, hey, hey,
Get your GHK,
Try some today!
You’ll see the world,
In a different way,
No coloured glasses,
Necessary,
When touched by the
GHK faerie,
You’ll jumble up,
What you believe,
With the GHK way,
To perceive,
Life be grand,
Reperceive your troubles,
We only make,
Non-bursting bubbles,
Fill your life with colour,
Dropkick your grey,
Fortify yourself,
With GHK!

This Wind!

Wow! This wind today is really blowing!
It sure gets the autumn spirit going,
Time for hats, gloves, scarves, and a thermal cup,
And maybe even turn your collar up,
Because this wind here is no warm summer breeze,
It’s a blast designed to blow leaves off trees,
Items now should be placed in winter’s store,
Before this wind blows around even more,
It could take your chairs, your outside table,
Challenge a shingle or two, and gable,
Maybe reach further, blowing things away,
There goes a thought that I had yesterday!
Blowing branches, leaves, all kinds of rubble,
And whoosh! There goes a big pile of trouble!
It’s really cleansing, this autumnal blast,
Whoosh! There go some old pieces of my past!
Batten the hatches! Autumn is coming!
Seems like all kinds of changes are coming!

Second Chance?!?

Step right up! Get your second chance!
Second chances here today,
Another might not come your way,
No way to tell, no way to say,
Some never get a single one,
Count your old self lucky son!
The universe just gave you two,
Hope that you know what to do,
Do whatever it demands,
Grab that chance with both your hands,
Hug it hard, don’t let it go,
It’ll not come by again you know,
Use your hands, your head, your heart,
Give all you’ve got right from the start,
Then if all goes well, these words you heed,
A second chance will be all you need!

In Response To The Question “10 or 20 years ago did you expect to be where you are now?”

No, not this, that much is true,
Could not foresee what I’ve been through,
How much I’ve lost, how much I’ve learned,
The dreadful cost, the bridges burned,
But nonetheless I stand here now,
Slightly battered but refuse to bow,
Seen things I never would have seen,
Become a man I never would have been,
And despite all odds I have remained,
For I know my past can’t be regained,
I own every choice I ever made,
Though I sometimes wish they’d been replayed;
As with my past and present day,
My future choice will shape the way,
20 years before I’d not seen this,
20 years from now life could be bliss,
Bumps may come, a break, a bruise,
But my future is shaped,
By the way I choose.

SEX ADDICT?

The question,
Caught me off guard,
And it was hard,
At the time,
To answer,
But chances are,
You’re not far off the mark,
For as I lay there,
In the dark,
Hands bound fast,
Your tongue in my ass,
Eyes made blind,
I admit I could find,
I wanted nothing more,
Than what you held in store for me,
So I left wonderingly,
Am I afflicted?
Somehow addicted?
I’m not really sure,
But if I am,
I hope there’s no cure.