I’m often asked by folks I’ve met,
A question I’ll not soon forget.
“So, why did you come here?” they say,
It’s much better in the USA.
California’s warm and bright,
While Sweden’s cold and dark as night.
The average Swede is icy too,
Might as well be a blonde igloo.
I see their point, and must confess,
I sometimes miss the old US.
But the fact is that I’m now stuck here,
So stop this torment and get me a beer.
IKEA cat is not assembled properly…
My Well
There’s a well inside my core,
Used for one thing, nothing more,
To lock my deepest pain away,
So I don’t feel it every day,
Around the well my outer shell,
Filled with beauty, joy, troubles, strife,
The common stuff of daily life,
Most of the time I live up there,
Enjoying what life has to share,
But now and then there comes a twist,
I trip and stumble through the mist,
To the well, to visit pain so pure,
Is it bottomless? I’m never sure,
But I’m drawn back time and time again,
To revisit my heart’s pure pain,
There I wallow in what’s oft denied,
Till I slowly climb back up the side,
Leaving pain back down there on a shelf,
Till the cycle does repeat itself,
I return each time to the real world calling,
But worry one day I’ll just keep on falling……
Word of the Day: sorrow
Today’s word is a feeling. It’s similar to sadness but it has a different quality. Sadness is fleeting and shallow and easy to overcome. Tripping into a mud puddle while walking home in a downpour with no umbrella might make you sad. But a hot bath and a steaming mug of hot chocolate is all it takes to make your sadness disappear.
Sorrow, on the other hand, is not like tripping into a mud puddle.
Sorrow is like sinking into a deep inky black ocean. Its blackness envelops you as it pulls you down, down, down to the bottom.
The expression “drowning in sorrow” is a fairly accurate description of what it feels like. Often it takes a fully-mounted rescue operation to pull you out of it. But just remember that when you emerge from that deep ocean of pure sorrow, you’ll have a greater understanding and appreciation of pure joy.
“Sorrow is tranquillity remembered in emotion.”
Dorothy Parker
Kang and Kate
Our scribbling sister is burying her best friend today, and I think we’re all in a solemn and reflective mood because of it. When times are hard we try comfort one another as best we can, but we may not always have the words. Sometimes there simply are no words. But we’re here nonetheless. I never met Kate but it’s obvious that she meant the world to Kang.
Anyway, I’ll be shutting up now and letting the words of a much better poet take over:
Funeral Blues
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crêpe bows round the white necks of the public
doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any goodW.H. Auden
…for kate
This poem was found among some cards and letters Kate had saved over the years. She had copied it down in her handwriting so it’s safe to assume that it meant a great deal to her. Since her burial is tomorrow, I thought I would honor the day with something she found so compelling.
Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep
by Mary Elizabeth FryeDo not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave bereft
I am not there. I have not left.
To my cat: a love poem
I love your precious little nose.
The way you lick between your toes.
I love each little noise you make,
And play with toys until they break.
I know it’s simply useless.
I cannot resist your cuteness.
It’s just so funny and so sweet,
When you stand on your hind feet.
I love every single tiny claw.
I’m wrapped around your little paw.
The Clash
Those of us who were around in the early ‘80s undoubtedly remember The Clash’s monster hits “Rock The Casbah” and “Should I Stay Or Should I Go.” To many people, the fact that the band imploded a year after these songs’ release marks The Clash as another one-hit wonder in an era rife with disposable pop acts. However, the fact is that The Clash had already created a pioneering musical legacy long before ascending the pop charts, one that continues to resonate today.
In 1976, Joe Strummer (born John Mellor) was the frontman of London pub rock band the 101ers. Pub rock was a form of rootsy, boogie type music that was popular as a soundtrack to drinking in pubs. One night, Strummer saw an early performance of a bunch of scruffy juvenile delinquents calling themselves the Sex Pistols. This was before “punk rock” even had a name- at this point the Pistols were just a bunch of disaffected kids playing stripped down, adrenaline charged rock & roll. Their music recalled the early days of bands like the Who and Rolling Stones, back when rock music was seen as a dangerous threat to morality and social order instead of as a business.
Instantly, Strummer knew he was seeing the future of rock & roll. By the mid ‘70s, rock had become mired in bland mediocrity as the trailblazing stars of the previous decade settled into mansions and sank under the weight of their own malaise and self-indulgence. Economic times were tough, and escapism was the overall theme in the entertainment world. Where rock music had once challenged social norms, it was now content to pacify, as evidenced by pub rock’s “let’s just get wasted and have a good time” philosophy. Raw, edgy bands like the Pistols were needed to make rock compelling again.
Strummer soon met up with a group of likeminded musicians and formed The Clash, whose lineup had solidified by the end of the year to include guitarist Mick Jones, bassist Paul Simonon, and drummer Terry Chimes. Their self-titled 1977 debut is a rough-hewn document of a band finding its legs, but it stands head and shoulders above the morass of “punk” records issued that year. Prodded by manager Bernie Rhodes to move beyond simple boy/girl lyrical topics, Strummer wrote about the world facing Britian’s young people in the late ‘70s- unemployment, police harassment, race, class, encroachment of American culture and an uncertain future. Although they could play fast and loud with the best of them, The Clash also showed a willingness to slow things down (relatively speaking) and stretch out with a cover of Junior Murvin’s reggae hit “Police And Thieves.”
After the album came out, fate handed The Clash a blessing in disguise. Drummer Terry Chimes resigned, resulting in a mad scramble for a replacement. The eventual candidate was Nicky “Topper” Headon, whose jazz and r&b skills made him ridiculously overqualified for playing in a punk band. Headon’s initial plan was to build his resume with The Clash in order to move on to “real” drumming work, but the group soon realized they had an incredible musical chemistry. Chimes had been a good drummer, but Headon’s extensive musical palate enabled the band to broaden their horizons in ways they’d never imagined possible.
1978’s Give ‘em Enough Rope showed a band much more musically savvy than the year before, but their willingness to move beyond the strict template of punk left many fans crying sell-out. The safe move would have been a return to form, blasting out loud fast songs with tunefulness kept to a minimum. Instead, in 1979 The Clash released London Calling, a double album that shattered all notions of what punk, or even rock music itself, was all about. The genre-hopping record included a dizzying array of styles and sounds that were all flawlessly executed- this wasn’t the work of dilettantes, The Clash had done their homework and were able to fully integrate their diverse influences and create a unique musical style. Ironically, by discarding punk’s stifling aesthetics they managed to stay truer to the movements’ original intent of creative expression than any other band. London Calling proved to be one of the most influential records in rock history (my vinyl copy hangs in a frame in my son’s room).
By 1980 The Clash began writing and recording in New York City as they became interested in the fledgling rap and club music scene there. Lengthy, spliff-inspired studio jams were edited together to become the basis for 1981’s sprawling Sandinista!, a three-record set that contained a single albums’ worth of brilliant tracks scattered among experiments, jokes and boring noodling. True to their principles, Sandinista! (like its predecessor) was sold at single album price, which severely impacted The Clash’s earnings.
Although they were internationally famous and critically acclaimed, by 1981 The Clash were in debt to their record company. In light of this, the preparation for their next album was a source of contention in the band. Guitarist Mick Jones had begun assuming production duties for their recordings, and was insistent on producing their next record himself. His version of the album, provisionally titled Rat Patrol From Fort Bragg, was rejected not only by their record label, but by the rest the band as being too experimental. The master tapes were handed over to veteran producer Glynn Johns, who trimmed and tweaked the recordings into what became 1982’s Combat Rock. Bootleg copies of Rat Patrol From Fort Bragg reveal an album not quite finished, and illustrate Johns’ excellent sense of what needed to be improved versus what shouldn’t be fiddled with. Jones’ version is moodier, longer, and more verbose, but Johns was able to tighten things up without losing the band’s identity or original intent.
“Should I Stay Or Should I Go” and “Rock The Casbah” from that album propelled The Clash into the stratosphere. Constant touring and massive record sales quickly erased the band’s debt, and they began earning large sums of money. However, things were falling apart. Just before Combat Rock was released, Topper Headon had been fired from the band due to his debilitating heroin addiction. Ironically, he’d been the one to write the music for “Rock The Casbah”, which would soon become the band’s biggest hit. The Clash drafted Terry Chimes back into the fold but he resigned again at the end of the Combat Rock tour, citing the toxic atmosphere in the band. Jones and Strummer had begun feuding over artistic direction and control, and in late 1983 Jones was fired.
Most fans consider this the end of The Clash, but unfortunately that isn’t the case. Strummer hired a new drummer and a pair of guitarists (bassist Simonon had stayed on) and began to tour and write new material. The resulting Cut The Crap (generally referred to by fans simply as Crap) is an unmitigated disaster. While recording the album, Strummer and band manager Bernie Rhodes had fallen out, resulting in Strummer abandoning the sessions. Rhodes decided to finish the album on his own and subsequently submitted it to the record label, which was evidently too hungry for a follow up to the multiplatinum Combat Rock to realize they’d been handed a load of garbage. After Crap’s 1985 release, the band inexplicably went on a busking tour of England- hitchhiking from town to town and playing acoustic guitars in public places for change. By 1986, The Clash had finally ceased to exist.
Over the years, Strummer and Jones reconciled their differences while recognizing that they had drifted too far apart creatively to work together. In 2002, the Rock & Roll Hall Of Fame announced that The Clash would be inducted the following March. Strummer, Jones and Headon began discussing a possible reunion to coincide with the induction, which was sadly mooted when Strummer died of a heart attack on December 22, 2002. While Jones, Simonon and Headon have all worked together in various permutations since then, they have stated that The Clash cannot exist without Strummer.
Ignominious end aside, The Clash’s body of work sets a standard for creativity and fearlessness that will continue to challenge and inspire musicians for as long as there is rock music.
Being Drunk in Sweden
As a regular user of the City of Gothenburg’s signature trams, I’ve grown accustomed to seeing drunk people. Actually, drunk is really too weak an adjective to describe the condition of some of them. It needs help from a few verbs. Stumbling, slurring, slobbering, shit-faced drunk is more like it. This kind of drunken spectacle is seen regularly on the trams, but for some reason it’s less common on buses. I don’t recall ever seeing a loud, obnoxious and obviously drunk person on a bus. Apart from the so-called night bus that is, which should really be called the take-you-home-when-you’re-wasted-off-your-ass bus.
While I’m used to seeing drunks on the tram, I still find myself wondering what the hell is the deal with them. Have they no shame? Isn’t it illegal to be that drunk in public in Sweden? I know that to be drunk in public to that extent is completely illegal in the U.S.
Maybe this is why the Swedish government insists on the necessity of Systembolaget (Sweden’s infamous alcohol retail monopoly), as well as producing those anti-alcohol propaganda commercials that always air right after a commercial for some boozy product like Captain Morgan’s “Get a little Captain in you” Spiced Gold Rum (highly recommended, by the way…). The government claims that Systembolaget is essential because a number of highly biased studies have shown that it does regulate and restrict the amount of alcohol that one may purchase and consume, and thus it reduces instances of public drunkenness. Its limited hours are indeed very effective in limiting the amount of booze one may purchase. If you want to buy a bottle of wine or some regular beer after 2pm on Saturday then you are, as the saying goes, shit out of luck for the remainder of the weekend.
However, most people find various ways of working around the “system.” One can take one of the “booze cruise” ferries from Helsingborg or any other port that heads to Denmark or Germany. In fact, I’m planning on doing just that during Easter weekend. As soon as the boat exits Swedish waters, you are free to purchase cases of beer and large one-liter size bottles of liquor, both of which are unavailable at Systembolaget. I suppose the government just can’t allow the average Swedish resident to have access to that much booze. Naturally, we’d be powerless to prevent ourselves from consuming the entire liter bottle and all 24 cans of beer all at once. Because, you know, we’re stupid and the government is smart and knows what’s best for us.
And anyway, one can always go to a bar. For a country that really doesn’t want its citizens to get drunk, it sure does contain an awful lot of bars. Systembolaget closes its doors at the pitifully early hour of 6pm on Friday evening, and after that time every single bar in every single Swedish city is dispensing mass quantities of Swedish lager to just about every single Swede of legal drinking age.
Then a number of those people end up staggering onto some form of public transport to make their way home after their Friday night piss-up. And then people like me end up writing blog posts about them.
That is, if I’m not actually included in their numbers. *hic*
Swedish Police priorities
It seems that hardly a day goes by in Sweden that I don’t read about some woman being sexually assaulted, masked men with axes rob a bank, or there is a gang shooting. Growing up in Sweden I’m sure that we had crimes, but it seems to me that there are more crimes now than there used to be. Maybe that’s just me idealizing my carefree childhood, but still, times are changing. Common sense would dictate that a Rudolph Giuliani-style crime crackdown would be in order: prioritize catching the bad guys and getting them off the streets. But no, it seems Swedish cops are way too busy trying to catch speeders, do DUI enforcement, or even dancing!
Granted, all those things are important, but enforcing a winter tire law!!! WTF?
What the hell is a Winter Tire Law, you ask? Well, in Sweden between 16 April och 30 September, you are mandated to drive with summer tires, and the rest of the time, during the winter, you are supposed to drive with winter tires. Apparently this is a big thing in Sweden and the police are out in force making sure that Swedish drivers are in compliance or they will face a 500 SEK fine (approximately $80 USD dollars, 2011). When I moved to Sweden for grad school, I didn’t even know that there were separate tires for winter driving and summer driving. I had never heard of anybody in the United States changing their tires with the seasons. Well, except my old college roommate who lives in Ohio, but he’s German, so does that count? Anyhow, I’m glad that Swedish Police have their priorities, just give them some savory tarts and they will get right on it… solving trombone capers.


