Almost Gone

Look through my window… See how the sunlight sparkles...On the breezy bay.

When last we met,
You were a shadow.
A dream…
A ghost from long ago.
Like the tune to a forgotten song,
You’re still here,
But almost gone.
I don’t think you know I’m here.
You are lost…
About to disappear.
Where you’ve gone,
I know not where,
But, surely you must still be in there.
Oh, daddy…
Do you know it’s me?
When you look,
What do you see?
Do you see me looking at you?
The little girl,
Who still loves you…

Update: I’ve just been awarded the Perfect Poet Award from the Poet’s Poetry Cafe website. This poem was so personal, and so painful for me to read and to write. I’m quite overcome.

 

44 thoughts on “Almost Gone

  1. I feel I should add this as a footnote to this poem.

    The problem with my father isn’t Alzheimer’s or anything like that. Unfortunately, it’s something worse. It’s drugs. Last time I saw him he was so out of his mind on drugs he just sat there and stared into space most of the time.

    It was unnerving.

  2. It is hard to watch a parents demise, my father seems to be losing his marbles and it isn’t pretty to watch :o(

    My heart goes out to you.

  3. Heartbreaking Gwen.
    One of my nephews visits his father regularly in a longterm care facility where he ended up because of a drug overdose. Absolutely tragic.

  4. Thanks, everyone. I’ve been thinking about my dad a lot lately, which is something I try not do to.

  5. A sincere poem. You have expressed your pain very well, and in doing so, give voice to others too. Thank you for sharing!

  6. Thank you all so much for your wonderful comments and support. Tears were streaming down my face as I wrote this poem. Even now, I can’t read it without weeping.

    The whole situation just seems so hopeless.

  7. It’s sad when your existence means little if nought to those to whom it should be cherished. I can apply empathy here and am happy to have found something so touching. An epic masterpiece of poetic art.

  8. beautiful…

    a daughter’s love is always precious to have and image.

    Thanks for sharing the wonder and passion.
    bless both of You!

  9. I hope your love will save him… It’s really sad how a person can consciously do so much harm to himself and those who love him. Bless you!

  10. Heart-rending and sadly beautiful. Power laguishes in every word. Expressive and thought provoking. An important piece, indeed.

  11. God bless you, for such a caring poem to a father.. Your love is a good medicine already! Prayers and hope, I send them your way!

  12. This is sad.

    When I first started reading it, I thought he was a memory – I related immediately to my children who lost their father to death eleven years ago and still mourn and long for his presence. I think this must be harder.

    I wish you courage.

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    • For the longest time I couldn’t read this piece without bursting into tears, and I still get all weepy eyed when I look at it. We definitely need those prayers. Thank you very much for your support, and your nomination.

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