You are not alone. The Holiday Season can be difficult. Hopefully you have friends and family that love you. Even if you do not, you have yourself. Love yourself. You have potential. You have worth. If you need help… Get help… There is no shame in that. You are not alone.
Random Misanthrope 
Great song, Shark, with a very important message. David Bowie had something similar to say in the song “Rock n Roll Suicide”:
Oh no love! You’re not alone
You’re watching yourself but you’re too unfair
You got your head all tangled up but if I could only
Make you care
Oh no love! You’re not alone
No matter what or who you’ve been
No matter when or where you’ve seen
All the knives seem to lacerate your brain
I’ve had my share, I’ll help you with the pain
You’re not alone!
Thanks John. You are so very right. Last Christmas was a fucking disaster for me. Alone on Christmas Eve, one friend who was supposed to come over and cancelled at the last minute. There have been years where I have sworn to ignore Christmas, but it’s impossible. I can manage right up to Christmas Eve no trouble, but as soon as Christmas morning comes I am overcome with the magic of Christmas. I guess it sits pretty deep. You’re right of course, the thing to do is reach out.